Contibuting less to opensource

TL;DR: Just me talking about not having motivation. Don’t read this shit.

I started contributing less to opensource. But why is that?

First of all I don’t really have time anymore for coding. I started attending high school and I don’t have motivation to spend 5 hours coding daily. Also I try to dedicate my time to my significant other.

Not having a motivation

In the last couple of months I didn’t really have a motivation to do anything. Literally. I was coding so I just have the GitHub contibution streak. Then school started and I had even less motivation to do anything. I just got really demotivated.

I don’t see a point in programming if I don’t find it interesting. If I don’t benefit from it I should find it fun at least. Of course I love opensource, I think this is the right path. But I personally don’t want to contibute that much anymore just because I can’t. I can’t focus on it and just end up again sleeping 10 hours a day.

I don’t do literally anything

I don’t play any videogames anymore. I almost don’t watch YouTube and other social media. Just sometimes when I’m that bored that I just either gonna lay on my bed and look vacantly or just watch YouTube.

Don’t have any hobbies

I had some hobbies before. Like solving a Rubik’s Cube. I was pretty good at that but then suddenly I lost all my motivation and passion for that. I just don’t find need to get better and find it boring. I have no idea what happend but I always loose interest in something easily like that.

I still code sometimes

Sometimes I just get so bored I start coding again. I just start some side project and I code couple thousands lines of code. But I don’t find any value in that so I don’t post it on GitHub. I keep this shit on my Gitea instance. Also I code some school projects too.